Wounds uncovered, wounds healed

It was a nudge, it was a wake up call. I admit, it was something I was not prepared for.

I kept it under wraps for five years, six maybe.. I woke up to realise that I speak about acceptance, about differences, I had not accepted it.

The same close confidante pointed out an invisible wall around me. A wall I hardly realise, a wall I never imagined I could have built. How was it visible..

We never realise ourselves how we portray our happiness, our pain, our contentment. I did it by hiding, letting drown deep, deep into my past.

I'd never thought I'd speak about it again, but I'm very glad that I was shown this wall, shown this chance that I have to accept the pains, and the relief one feels after difficult moment.

It was exactly that wall. I build around me to protect from being hit again. To protect from being abused again. To stop from lashes of pain at me again. To stop the profanities, to stop the disrespect. To stop the throws, to stop the control.

I feel a burden leaving, I feel the acceptance. I thank you to you, for showing me that life's experiences does not make you any weaker.. It teaches you to accept that mistakes happen, pain hits you, and you DO find happiness, contentment.

How does one do that, I found it in accepting.