d.O.o.r.s

Just when life's doors
Closes on you
Another one
Opens up to you.

Baby steps
As you take
Beyond what you understand
Beyond what your heart can take

It grabs you
It gasps you
You wonder
If you want to catch your breath

Nothing prepares
No one knows
The colours
Behind the doors

You smell
Inhale the whiffs
Of fresh air
Closing eyes

Baby steps not so
You exhale, smile
Open them wide
Embrace with heartfelt warmth

I'd Pick More Daisies

If I had my life to live over again,
I'd try to make more mistakes next time.
I would relax, I would limber up,
I would be sillier than I have been this trip.

I know of very few things I would take seriously.
I would take more trips.
I would be crazier.
I would climb more mountains, swim more rivers, and watch more sunsets.

I would do more walking and looking,
I would eat more ice cream and less beans,
I would have more actual troubles and fewer imaginary ones,

You see, I'm one of those people who lives life prophylactically and sensibly hour after hour, day after day.

Oh, I've had my moments; and if I had to do it over again I'd have more of them.

In fact, I'd try to have nothing else, just moments, one after another, instead of living so many years ahead each day.

I've been one of those people who never go anywhere without a thermometer, a hot-water bottle, a gargle, a raincoat, aspirin and a parachute.

If I had it to do over again, I would go places, do things, and travel lighter than I have.
If I had my life to live over I would start barefooted earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall.

I would play hooky more.
I would ride on more merry-go-rounds.
I'd pick more daisies....

*Anonymous

*Reproduced from a sharing of a close confidante, who reminded of what is truly important in life.

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I don’t.
I don’t want to.
I don’t want to call.
I don’t want to intrude much.

I respect.
I respect time.
I respect spaces.
I respect… respect.

I withdraw.
I withdraw much.
I withdraw myself.
I withdraw from giving.

I seek.
I seek peace.
I seek solace.
I seek undying love.

I stop.
I stop whines.
I stop complaints.
I stop to look, think and act.

I focus.
I focus strong.
I focus on ambition.
I focus visions, goals and dreams.

I find.
I find love.
I find strengths.
I find unconditional understanding.

S.A.N.C.T.U.A.R.Y

It's raining outside. Pelts of water hitting the roof.

Perfect excuse to stay in. Sit in. Hide.

It is easy for some. To find this place. A place that will content them. And find heart's peace.

To some, it is not so. I rediscovered it's difficulties again.

I know tonight why I hide from the masses, seeking differences, seeking uniqueness. It shouldn't surprise me.

Behind the interactions of masses, behind the meetings of volumes.

One would think uniqueness exist. One would think the differences would stand out. It doesn't.

It doesn't. I don't have the answers. I've been searching. I stopped.

I started to believe that uniqueness will present itself in its form.

I find then a sanctuary of my own. Amidst my kinks, my niches, my corner, my peeves.

But.. uniquess taking its form, it did. It unfolded in ways unexpected.

I am discovering a sanctuary unknown, a sanctuary I met. I pray. I can stay.